Ahlem El Mezni

It was 1 am and I couldn’t sleep.

My mind was wandering... I was lying in my bed counting the stars I had seen one night on the rooftop.

I tend to think about something that happened six years ago, or maybe two hours ago!! Or something that could happen five years from now.

My mind was alive with words I couldn't say before, with words that I wish I could say one day!

Thoughts by Ahlem El Mezni

Someone told me once that I'm so dreamy and romantic and all that "shit" will run my life out, so I have to be a realist sometimes.

A few days after, we went into an arguing which ended with a broke up. I didn't ask or beg him to stay. I kept all that "shit" -as he said- behind my back, I opened him the door and let him go.

And this was the most realistic thing that I have ever done in my whole life.

I used to think that chemistry, love, and passion are all we need to make a relationship work. BUT, I was pretty wrong, unfortunately.

Ahlem El Mezni

I remember that night when he cheers me up and smiled, he was so noticed but maybe just by I; a peaceful man with an enigmatic smile besides two withered eyes.
Damn his eyes! They were so nice, so I melt …

Honestly, I was so noticed to (as he said, too); A hot woman in black, with a sexy tattoo on my left shoulder.
I didn’t want anyone of those guys who asked me to dance or to share our numbers but him.

Ahlem El Mezni

I feel like I’m in an inside war; and I shall keep it all there because I’d rather destroy myself than everyone else! It’s like I’m losing my self somewhere, in a place which is hard to be found.

I’m missing my peaceful days, I miss doing my nights, sleeping for hours without wondering, without being worry about tomorrow.

My pillow is fed up of being wet every night, my lashes miss hugging each other, and I miss my fucking sweet dreams!

Each and every morning I wake up with too much pain in my deep down, with dark circles which are closer than my best friends.

Ahlem El Mezni

Don’t fall in love with her because she is the type you meet when you’re young only to regret when you’re older. If you mess it up she is the ones that haunt you with what if !

She is The lost love songs that suddenly start making sense. The what if that kill you late at night. The mistake you wish you could undo but you also learned so much from her..

Dont fall in love with her because she's learned a lot about life, the hard way, and she's always had to be the strong one In playing the role she doesn’t ask to. She learned to be her own best friend, she learned to love herself. She learned to be other people’s strength and when she felt like falling apart she carried others.